I am feeling rather lost at this moment. Lost in thought, in time, in being alive. It feels a bit like I am floating in a sea of emptiness. A rather peaceful and comfortable feeling, yet at the same time, I feel weird for saying that I feel comfortable with being lost. On day one of feeling alive, I talked about how I must always do something.
How that feeling of pressure made me feel stressed and anxious. I felt that anxiety and pressure fully, and I realized how insane it is to push ourselves to all these limits. How we are stressing out and worrying, and always try to improve ourselves. Over and over again. But what for?
I feel rather lost at the moment because, with the past two days of feeling alive, I released two major stuck feelings within me.
That feeling stuck with me. I feel rather lost at the moment because, with the past two days of feeling alive, I released two major stuck feelings within me. Two beliefs that I held onto, giving me a sense of both purpose, and direction, but also comfort and safety.
Which wasn’t real safety and comfort. It just felt that way. Now I realize that all of this was just a sort of illusion I created for myself and that I really only was blocking myself from feeling comfortable with everything in life. The moment I released that feeling, those thoughts, a gush of meaninglessness came over me. Meaninglessness in the good sense of the word.
We often see meaninglessness as a bad thing. To have no meaning, no purpose in life. Yet that’s not what this is. I feel that my life has no meaning other than to be alive.
We often see this as a bad thing. To have no meaning, no purpose in life. Yet that’s not what this is. I feel that my life has no meaning other than to be alive. I let go of that constant desire to pursue some meaning in life, other than to just feel alive.
That’s why I started this series. This stream of feeling alive, in this vast and gorgeous world of ours. Since I felt that meaninglessness I feel like I am floating adrift. In the middle of a big sea. Just floating. I am not really scared of it. I feel that there is nothing else to do than to float with the current. To write about feeling alive, and whilst doing that to actually feel alive. It’s a wonderful and blissful experience, to be honest with you. Allowing me to pour in my soul, heart, and emptiness.
I don’t want to get out of this feeling of floating. I feel at home, I feel alive. Yet I do feel that it’s a rather weird experience. To feel lost in life. Most of us don’t want to feel lost. But why?
It Sounds Weird
To say that I am feeling lost and that I am feeling blissful because of that sounds weird. After all, isn’t feeling lost a bad thing in life. So many people all around the world, in different areas and stages of life are telling us as young adults, that we should have a purpose in life. Something that gives our lives meaning.
Which at the same time creates a feeling of being lost if you don’t have a purpose. Something to work towards. To that, I have always said that we should go and look for that purpose. To find it in the things we like to do. I now realize how ignorant this is of the one fact that’s far more important than having a life purpose.
We’re so caught up in finding that purpose, that thing we love to do, that we forget about the single most important fact there is. That there is nothing else to do than to be alive. This is the purpose of life. I talked about this in another article (Click here to read the article)
We’re so caught up in finding that purpose, that thing we love to do, that we forget about the single most important fact there is. That there is nothing else to do than to be alive.
This idea that we should have a purpose in life has been pushed upon us. Without a doubt, we took it as the truth. Making us believe that if we don’t know what we like, or love to do, or that if we don’t know what our purpose is in life, that we are useless. Lost. Adrift in a vast sea of limitless potential, yet we only see that we are adrift not going anywhere. We don’t see the limitless potential in that feeling of being lost.
We just see that we are not going anywhere in particular. That desire that we ought to be moving in some direction created the belief for me that I had to work towards a grand dream. A large purpose in life. But that purpose is none other than to be alive. This means that there really isn’t a purpose to strive for. To go after. To achieve. There’s just floating, in the here and now.
Seeing all the gorgeous blessings and vast potentials that meaninglessness holds.
What An Illusion
What an illusion have we been creating for ourselves. That we should have some grander meaning in this life. That we ought to be seeking for the meaning of our lives. All throughout history great minds have bend over this question, what is the purpose of life?
What an illusion have we been creating for ourselves. That we should have some grander meaning in this life. That we ought to be seeking for the meaning of our lives.
None of them ever found a purpose. Some say it is helping others. Others say it is doing what you love. Others say it is being of service. But all of these have one thing in common. Being alive. Yet all these great philosophers overlooked this fact. To help others we need to be alive. To do what we love we should be alive. If we want to be of service we should be alive.
There is no other meaning in life than to be alive. To experience the grandiosity of living. Yes, that involves doing what you love and helping others. But these aren’t the goal we should go after. These are just things along the road. They happen naturally. That is if we allow ourselves to feel alive.
Allow ourselves to feel alive. This doesn’t mean you’re always happy to be alive. Nor that you are always feeling lost. It just means that you’re drifting presently, calmly, peacefully, with the current of life.
This doesn’t mean you’re always happy to be alive. Nor that you are always feeling lost. It just means that you’re drifting presently, calmly, peacefully, with the current of life. There’s nothing, in particular, to go to. Nothing to strive for. Nothing to push for. The current of your life will take you exactly where you need to be.
This is the great process of letting go of everything in life. Becoming empty. Just feeling alive. Living as the day progresses. For me that meant I feel lost in life right now. Cause I shed away another belief I had, that I had to have some goal to work towards.
Dissolving the belief that there is anything we must achieve in life, makes you see reality. Whatever is right now. To feel comfort, safety, and peace even when we are lost. Unsure of where to go too. We’re just completely accepting the life we are living.
Through The Emptiness
This feeling of comfort is blissful, because knowing that there is no purpose, no meaning to life, shows you how limitless you are. All this focusing on what goals to achieve. All this focusing on success, and meaning. All this focusing on helping others, and doing something good for the world, it’s all a waste of energy.
That doesn’t mean these are bad things. Not at all. These are beautiful things, but because they are beautiful they are bound to happen naturally. We literally can’t go without doing things we love. We can’t live without helping others. We do it naturally. It’s within us. It’s our inherent nature. Cause we are love.
Love isn’t a feeling, nor is it something we do. To love is to be love.
Love isn’t a feeling, nor is it something we do. To love is to be love. Shedding away all these layers of belief that we ought to have a purpose in life, moves us into being love. Cause if we are love, it means we are living. We are one with it. Vastly adrift. Lost. Yet blissful. Enjoying the serenity of being adrift in that sea of life.
Through that, through that emptiness, of feeling no need, no desire, no attachment to life we will naturally drift towards the things that are love. Things like helping a neighbor, or talking to a friend. Things like doing what we love, or enjoying the day.
All these things we are so desperately after, like peace, love, happiness, meaning, enjoyment, come to you. They are part of life. Yes, people have found these things by looking for them, but only after a great deal of fighting, fuzzing, and hustling. Which is a great waste of beautiful life energy.
All these things we are so desperately after, like peace, love, happiness, meaning, enjoyment, come to you. They are part of life.
Everything that is meant to happen will happen. We can use up a great amount of energy to paddle our way towards it. Or we can simply be alive. Recognize that all these things we are after are inherent in our nature. That this is the way we were born. That we are alive. Lost. Never to be found. We shouldn’t want to be found.
That would take away all the beauty of spontaneity in life. All the beauty of feeling. Of experiencing. Of trying. Of adventure. So if you are feeling lost. Be lost. Completely lost. Find no meaning in it other than to experience it. Try not to get rid of it, or embrace it. Just feel lost. Just be alive. Feel alive.
I am sure you’ll drift to the place where your heart wants you to go. That path is filled with love. Miracles. Blessings. Spontaneity. Beauty. Cause that is the inherent nature of life. To see the miraculousness of being alive. So yeah, be lost, I cannot say anything else. Drift, beautiful soul. On the vast ocean of limitless potential in your life. Close your eyes, and feel alive. Because today you live! Make the most of it.
I am sure you’ll drift to the place where your heart wants you to go.