Why are we so lost? So lost from reality? Caught in our minds. In the constant misery, we create for ourselves. Why do we create such misery in life for ourselves? Why do we constantly create new problems and struggles? Why are we so stressed, so rushed, busy, and focused on the future? Why are we so concerned about our past, and how it influences the present?
Why are we lost, lost from the only home there is? Can we return home? If we know what home is?
Why We Are Lost
If we look around in this world, and within ourselves, we see so much chaos, so much violence, and aggression. So many lost souls. Not just in conflict with one another, but also with themselves. Wars between countries, and within countries. Poverty, hate, discrimination, terrorism. So much violence. Violence towards others, but also violence to oneself.
By constant ambition, and need to succeed. Working ourselves into destruction for money and power. Comparison to others, which causes so much self-doubt, depression, and war within ourselves.
We are all lost. All of us who set out on a path of violence and destruction. Everyone who needs and desires change.
We are all lost. All of us who set out on a path of violence and destruction. Everyone who needs and desires change. Everyone who compares has ambitions. We have lost touch with home. With the one place that can have a real change in life. Not the superficial change that we are striving for outside ourselves.
Like the change created by the ambition to have millions of dollars. Or the change created from the desire to succeed or be better than someone else. Or the change coming from self-improvement and development, because of the dissatisfaction with ourselves.
I have been lost too, I have lost my way home. Cause I felt that I had to change myself to be loved, to be good enough. I desired change in myself, but that change is and will always be superficial. I change habits, the things I do, the way I look, and my mindset. All to develop myself, thinking that I am improving.
In reality, I am only changing things outside myself, but the core, the center, is chaotic, unstable, violent. It has no compassion, no pure love for who I am, as I am. It is because of that, that I lost touch with home. With life. Through the desire to achieve, through ambition, and seeking for a larger life purpose. All of it has just been an illusion. One to keep me from coming home.
Through the desire to achieve, through ambition, and seeking for a larger life purpose. All of it has just been an illusion. One to keep me from coming home.
Home to myself. So you are lost too. You have lost home. The here and now. With what is right now. You have lost touch with that if you are striving for success. If you want to change yourself. If you desire, compare, label, or force anything. Through which you create problems, and struggles for yourself. You are violent to yourself and therefore the world, in many subtle ways. So let’s return home. Where we belong.
Through so many forms of desire, comparison, violence, attachment, and achievement, we have lost touch with our home. Home of eternity. Right here, right now. Living today. A home of peace, silence, vastness, and graciousness. An empty place, with no “I” to desire, compare, violate, attach, or achieve anything. That’s home. Where everything is one, and yet everything is separate.
Home is where everything is one, and yet everything is separate.
I am speaking of living life. As it is. We are so lost from that place. We are either living in the future or the past. Never really at home, right here and now. Living fully is far different than we are doing right now. Living isn’t just getting by, or striving for more. Living is now, in everything we do, experience, and are. Yet we deny much of that living because we think it’s not right.
Living is now, in everything we do, experience, and are. Yet we deny much of that living because we think it’s not right.
What do I mean by that? We are, for example, pushing away our fear because we have been told it is not the right thing if we have big ambitions. Therefore we must rid ourselves of fear, violating it, to achieve our ambitions. This is direct aggression towards ourselves. Towards life. There is so much violence in this desire for success, in this drive to change, and achieve.
We always want to rid our lives of problems, but that desire to rid ourselves of problems is a violent way to live. We are violent inwardly, towards ourselves by saying that we should get rid of the problems we are creating. This is hate towards the self. This also results in violence outside by hating others, judging, hurting, or overpowering them.
We must not rid our lives of anything. We shouldn’t be violent in any form. This also means we shouldn’t be violent towards violence. We shouldn’t reject, or hate violence within ourselves. That’s not home. That’s not being at peace. Nor should we give in to violence and act upon it. To be at home means to be here now. Empty. You see, what I mean by being empty?
I mean with that, that there is no “I” anymore. The moment we see ourselves as “I”, so for example in this phrase: I want to be successful. Do you see the word “I”? The word “I” is what creates violence, and aggression. The “I” is what desires, which has ambition and compares. It is the “I” that we want to observe. You see, we shouldn’t rid ourselves of the “I” that is yet again the “I” who wants to use violence to achieve a certain state of being.
To return home we should observe the “I” and become one. Instead of separating ourselves from it, and fighting it, we should observe it.
To return home we should observe the “I” and become one. Instead of separating ourselves from it, and fighting it, we should observe it. Be one with it, as well as non-attached to it. We can simply observe it, what it’s thinking, doing, feeling, wanting. We don’t need to act upon it or change it. We need only be at home. Right here, right now. Living fully. That’s what home is. Living. Now. Not somewhere in the future, or past. Not with a desire to change, or achieve. Not with a desire to overcome, or conquer.
Simply to be. That’s the irony of all of this. We have made life such a complicated and intricate thing, that we got lost in it. We lost touch with home. Home being life itself. Just living. Experiencing it. Observing. Aware of it. Can we return there? To home? A universal home.
Simply to be. That’s the irony of all of this. We have made life such a complicated and intricate thing, that we got lost in it. We lost touch with home. Home being life itself.
We have created such a complicated life for ourselves. Full of desires, comparison, and achieving. Which is such a waste of a perfectly beautiful life as it is. You see, have you ever just enjoyed life. As it is. No thoughts. No comparison to the past, others, or the future. No desire to change it. No need to achieve anything, both internally or externally. If all of that is gone, have you just enjoyed life as it is? Being present.
Only if we return home can we enjoy life as it is. Cause life as it is, living, is a state of being that’s pure and peaceful. Oh man, have I missed this place of home in the past years of my life. Returning home is very simple. Yet to maintain it, it requires a great deal of discipline and awareness. Yet to return home now for a moment is very simple. Simply be aware of yourself reading. Notice how the brain automatically creates meaning out of the words you are reading. Notice if you are reading aloud in your head. Notice your body.
Be aware, of whatever is right now. Happening in life. That’s home. A place in which everything is, and nothing should change.
Be aware, of whatever is right now. Happening in life. That’s home. A place in which everything is, and nothing should change. It will change, don’t worry about that, cause change is a natural state of being in life. Only we don’t need to force it, or desire it. We can just be living.
There isn’t a particular practice that can help you return home. Other than to be aware of now. Yes, meditation can help, but meditation is awareness. Which can be done at any moment. Meditation is a great practice, but not just the meditation in which we sit on a cushion or chair, trying to quiet the mind. That is not meditation, that is not a practice to partake in. Meditation, in its essence, is to be aware, and observe what is, that is a practice, a constant practice, that we should partake in.
Cause that awareness will lead us right home. To eternity. Into the now. Right here. Living life. Aware that today we live. Fully alive, making the most of it.
Living. One word. That’s home. Living.
If you want to experience more clarity on this topic and transform your life, by starting on a journey of self-discovery. To learn how you can tap into your inner wisdom, and understand your life’s problems. So that you can feel more alive. Then I want to invite you to listen to the Just Now Podcast. The Just Now podcast is a place for you to just be for a moment. To feel, experience, and understand what it means to be alive. The episodes all give extra clarity on topics discussed in the articles I write through short mindful guided meditations and reflective questions. Serving as a daily check-in to yourself.
I hope to speak to you there, for now, remember today you live! Make the most of it.